A funny thing happened from the webinar that just ended. Christy was talking about taking massive action and a wasp landed on the hammock where I was laying. Talk about massive action! It is kind of like, get up and move quickly!
But as I thought through this, what impacted me is that I had let someone beg on my soft side and got me to give a lot for very little. Sure, I was making progress but then I started to see how I was being used as a crutch. It ended up making me sick physically and I just lost all will power to continue. I’ve hidden in my little cave for the last two weeks avoiding everyone.
I don’t want healing to be about money. The energy that I saw recent is what I saw in my family. My family is always needy, wanting, begging, etc and this individual was doing the same thing. It would be nice to be there for those that maybe don’t have money, but if they just take while giving nothing in return, that is not a good therapeutic relationship and very draining on me.
I’m a massage therapist so I’m “SUPPOSED” to work on others. However, I don’t find one-on-one individual sessions of bodywork that fulfilling. I would rather be teaching. Now, I could use the sessions to help me learn more with real life examples so that I can be more effective in teaching what it is that I want to do. I’m out on a limb and don’t know of anyone else out there doing what I’m doing specifically. I’ve been shown truths that I wish the whole world understood. That’s my goal with training.
But my ah ha moment came out of the webinar where I don’t have to do things a certain way because everyone thinks that is the way they are doing. I think I’m dropping that BS and going back to what fills me with desire and energy – and that’s teaching through seminars and webinars.
I will still do some sessions, but hopefully with clients that aren’t being leeches and are paying. I believe I saw clearly why I need to charge for my services and not just give them away free.
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